So, I haven’t been on here in a while, and I need to get something off my chest, and I know this won’t be seen by many people on here, so that’s why I’m here.
I’m lonely. Not your typical “I want a boyfriend” or “I need to get laid” lonely, like, I feel alone.
And like, I know I have a bunch of good friends and an amazing family, so I am not indeed alone.
But you can only go so long without a companion before wondering what is wrong with you.
Why does no one love me.
I can’t even ask that as a question because I won’t accept anyone’s objections until I am in fact, loved.
I had never felt this bad before I had love given to me, and then ripped away.
I honestly don’t know what to do. I keep thinking “Holy shit. If I don’t find someone within the next few days I may die of a broken heart.” But yet, I remain.
I know this has something to do with God’s plan for me; that someday I will find the one person that completes my soul.
But frankly, I don’t know how I can wait til then. And everyone always says that it happens when you stop trying. But I can’t stop trying. I’m so desperate.
I just want to be held. I just want to be kissed. I just want to be loved.
Please God, grant me this. I need nothing more from this world, for you have already blessed me with so much. I don’t think this is too much to ask.