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So, I haven’t been on here in a while, and I need to get something off my chest, and I know this won’t be seen by many people on here, so that’s why I’m here. 

I’m lonely.  Not your typical “I want a boyfriend” or “I need to get laid” lonely, like, I feel alone.

And like, I know I have a bunch of good friends and an amazing family, so I am not indeed alone.

But you can only go so long without a companion before wondering what is wrong with you.

Why does no one love me.

I can’t even ask that as a question because I won’t accept anyone’s objections until I am in fact, loved.

I had never felt this bad before I had love given to me, and then ripped away.

I honestly don’t know what to do.  I keep thinking “Holy shit.  If I don’t find someone within the next few days I may die of a broken heart.”  But yet, I remain.  

I know this has something to do with God’s plan for me; that someday I will find the one person that completes my soul.

But frankly, I don’t know how I can wait til then.  And everyone always says that it happens when you stop trying.  But I can’t stop trying.  I’m so desperate.

I just want to be held.  I just want to be kissed.  I just want to be loved.

Please God, grant me this.  I need nothing more from this world, for you have already blessed me with so much.  I don’t think this is too much to ask.

Please.

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